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The Temple-Goers by Aatish Taseer (2010)

The Temple-Goers by Aatish Taseer (2010)The Temple-Goers, journalist Aatish Taseer’s debut novel, is a novel about friendships that cross socio-economic barriers, the distinction between the rich and the poor, ambition and pride, lust, love, religious faith,bitter hatred and the struggle for cohesive national identity in contemporary, postcolonial Delhi. The divide of traditional beliefs and practices collide with the contemporary and modern beliefs and practices brought to India by student émigrés shape the difficulties of developing a cohesive cultural and national identity. In The Temple-Goers, these issues are explored through the relationships of a privileged writer named Aatish Taseer who befriends an ambitious, significantly poorer young man, Aakash. Aakash’s assimilation into Aatish’s world sets in motion a number of irreparable changes in both of their lives.

Delhi drawing rooms. They were what I remembered of the city from my childhood. Perhaps it was Delhi’s fragmented geography, or that it had no real restaurants the way Bombay had – restaurants that were not attached to five-star hotels – or just that it was an old city, closely bound, with people who all seemed to know each other, but there was no setting, no cityscape more evocative of the city I grew up in than a lamp-lit drawing room with a scattering of politicians, journalists, broken-down royals, and perhaps an old Etonian, lying fatly on a deep sofa. And it was a dinner like this, with two blue and red glass fanooses burning in a corner, jasmine floating in a porcelain dish on a dining table draped in a white tablecloth, with white-on-white chikan-work flowers embroidered on it, and the over-strong aroma of a scented candle, that my mother gave for the writer.

After a stint in London, Aatish returns to Delhi to revise his novel, he spends his time with his devoted girlfriend, Sanyogita, and attend numerous parties and events. Recommended a gym by a family friend, he meets the enigmatic trainer Aakash. The two build a friendship which seems to be based on mutual admiration or envy of the other. Aakash, though living in a poor area of Delhi and with no entry into the privileged world that Aatish lives in, manages to integrate with Aatish’s social circle and significantly improve his social standing. Throughout the novel the writing is lushly floral and colourful, as Aatish casts a watchful and aware eye over his surroundings, both those familiar and unknown.

The light in Delhi had changed; it came now from another angle, and far from striking the surface of buildings, seemed to lose its footing on rooftops and columns. And though it was warm, you could sit in it for hours without breaking into a sweat. Hazy and scented with smoke, it rose like a glow from the city, heightening the sensory power of the Delhi winter. The bougainvillea, the occasional smell of kebabs, the wail of a garbage collector created so acute an impression that it was as if some part of an old photograph, having shed the inertia of years, had gently begun to move.

Using himself, or a fictionalized version of himself, characterized as a writer allows Taseer to subtly provide an interesting form of self-criticism, in a way preempting any criticism from the reader. It’s a clever technique, but not used to excess. Aatish receives the long awaited readers notes from the revised version of his novel; Aatish and Sanyogita discuss the merits of the work of Aatish’s writer friend and mentor; Zafar, Aatish’s Urdu teacher and renowned poet, and the writer friend provide him with writing advice – all of these incidences add a touch of self-awareness to the text. Not enough to distance the reader from the powerful narrative, but enough to give reason and evidence as to why The Temple-Goers is written as it is.

His face brightened. ‘Writing something modern, I hope,’ he said, ‘something fresh and original.’ Then using the English words ‘fiction’ and ‘non-fiction’ in both instances to mean fiction, good and bad, he said, ‘In the way men live today, the pressures upon them – and there are great strains and injustices – you’ll find fiction. The past is all non-fiction.’
‘And write in English?’
‘In English,’ he answered firmly. ‘The Indian languages are finished; or, at least, literature in them is finished. When I began there were magazines, poetry meetings, the progressive writers were still around, poets could write for the screen, there were readers, libraries, critics – all gone, swept away in one generation. It’s a very fragile thing, you know, literature; it needs an infrastructure. You can’t spend your life writing into the dark like me.’

The blurb and prologue of The Temple-Goers hint at a highly televised murder which doesn’t really come to the forefront of the narrative until the last fifty pages. While I did enjoy the rest of the novel, the gradual build up of Aatish and Aakash’s relationship and the gradual decay of Aatish and Sanyogita’s relationship, the vivid imagery of an India still trying to find it’s identity and the profound schism between the country’s rich and poor – the set-up in the promotional material or the introductory chapter of the supposedly crucial murder (and, presumably, who committed the crime, and all the how and why questions that come along with it) creates an expectation which is never quite fulfilled. When the murder and its wide reaching repercussions do reach their climax, it feels all too rushed, given the languid time spent on all the other details of the narrative. This horrific event, the brutal murder of a character we have come to know not intimately, but enough to feel the shock, however predictable it is, and the ways in which the convictions play out are accelerated so much that their effects aren’t as deeply felt as other aspects of the novel. Perhaps this expedited account is to suggest the stark difference between the daily realities of Delhi and how quickly events can change our circumstances, our relationships and our friendships. Regardless, I wish it had been drawn out more, reading another two hundred pages of Taseer’s vibrant writing would have been a pleasure.

A compelling narrative about friendships and rapacious ambition, and a portrait of a modern, changing India, The Temple-Goers really surprised me. From the promotional material and vague recollections of interviews and brief mentions in articles, along with the publicist-ready catchphrase of “the Indian Bret Easton Ellis”, I expected something a lot more dry, amoral and disconnected. Instead, The Temple-Goers offers a rich insight into another culture undergoing an immense shift, while personalizing this through understandably flawed and conflicted characters.

[Disclaimer: publisher supplied advance reading copy. An extract of The Temple-Goers is available online.]

Book Loot: Week Ending 28th February, 2010

John WatersCan you believe February is already over? It feels like only yesterday I was ringing in the new year with some bad singing and even worse dancing. The summer is over, March is upon us. This past week has been insanely busy, with live music protests, Wheeler Centre events, a music festival and associated sideshows, and, possibly my favourite, seeing the fabulous and funny film director John Waters deliver a monologue last night at Hamer Hall about all things filthy. He has a book due out later this year, Role Models, and excerpts are already available online. Waters spoke all too briefly about his extensive book collection – art books and film novelizations his specialty – and offered his sage and perennial advice:

If you go home with somebody and they don’t have books, don’t fuck ‘em.

This week another of the Carson McCullers‘ set I’ve started collecting arrived from France, this week it was Clock Without Hands, which of course I reviewed a few weeks ago. As I mentioned, the covers are of a simple typographical design, with a large black and white photograph of McCullers on the back flap of the dust jacket. Along with the most recent Penguin Modern Classic editions of her works, these hardcovers are probably the most appealing I’ve seen, I’ll be sure to post more photos of them once the collection expands.

Loaded by Christos Tsiolkas (1995)

Loaded by Christos Tsiolkas (1995)Christos TsiolkasLoaded follows Ari, a nineteen year old of Greek heritage and a sexuality he is not entirely comfortable with, in the hedonistic events of one night out in Melbourne. Although he has no problem with his desire to sleep with masculine men, he feels some discomfort in labeling himself as gay; it’s not just his sexuality that he dislikes defining, but his entire self, his racial and cultural heritage, his taste in music. He refuses the delineations of identity that society, his family and his peers want him to define himself by. He eschews work and study, and becomes frustrated and impatient when people seem to demand that he “do something.” Caught between the traditional Greek culture of his immigrant parents and his position in contemporary Australian society, and not feeling at ease in either, Ari struggles toward finding a place where he can just be himself without outside constraints or imposed definitions.

Speed is exhilaration. Speed is colours reflecting light with greater intensity. Speed, if it’s good, can take me higher than I can ever go, higher than my natural bodily chemicals can take me. [...] On speed I feel macho, but not aggressive. I’m friendly to everyone. Speed evaporates fear. On speed I dance with my body and my soul. In this white powder they’ve distilled the essence of the Greek word kefi. Kefi is the urge to dance, to be with good friends, to open your arms to life. Straight, I can approximate kefi, but I am always conscious of fighting off boredom. Speed doesn’t let you get bored.

Ari’s voice is undeniably passionate, confused as it is. He is full of adolescent generalizations about people who aren’t like himself, and he is not afraid to voice them. Though his experience of life is troubled by numerous conflicts, he cannot seem to see the same ruptures at work in the lives of others, choosing instead to take a simplified view of everyone else. Even Johnny, Ari’s openly gay friend whose relationship with his father is complex, doesn’t receive much sympathy from Ari. When Johnny appears as Toula, his drag alter ego, Ari refuses to acknowledge or address him as Toula, instead insisting on calling him Johnny. While there remains a friendliness between them, and a closeness, but these little things make up the sum of Ari’s personality. Even Ari’s sexual partners, even objects of intense desire, do not receive much thought especially after the physical act of sex has taken place. Then, for Ari, all mystery has gone. He has known them physically, so as Ari surmises, he has known them fully. This is all he has wanted them for, true, but the dismissal is abrupt and complete.

Inherently Melbournian, Loaded is divided into four sections – East, North, South and West – each representing time spent in the suburbs in the corresponding parts of Melbourne. As Ari articulates his frustration and rage, he manages to also pin down the divisions between different parts of the city – from the standards of living, the types of people who congregate there, what that represents and how it relates to his own experiences of life. Here is where the novel had so much power for me, though Ari’s outlook is much more cynical and pessimistic than mine. Like the divides that ravage his search for identity, he sees the divides that separate the city:

The West at night, as you drive over the Westgate Bridge, is a shimmering valley of lights. In the day, under the harsh glare of the sun, the valley reveals itself as an industrial quilt of wharfs, factories, warehouses, silos and power plants. And the endless stretch of suburban housing estates. The West is a dumping ground; a sewer of refugees, the migrants, the poor, the insane, the unskilled and the uneducated. There is a point in my city, underneath the Swanston Street Bridge where you can sit by the Yarra River and contemplate the chasm that separates this town. Look down the river towards the East and there are green parks rolling down to the river, beautiful Victorian bridges sparkle against the blue sky. Face West and there is the smoke scarred embankment leading towards the wharfs. The beauty and the beast. All cities, all cities depend on this chasm.

Rife with a drug fueled frenetic energy that doesn’t let up, Loaded kept me up to the early hours of the morning. The complex issues of immigrant identity, second generation immigrant children, sexuality, racial tension, desire and family are all explored in a youthful, vivacious, unrelenting prose that hums with the energy of late nights, pills and booze.

The Fuck-Up by Arthur Nersesian (1997)

The Fuck-Up by Arthur Nersesian (1999)Characterized in the blurb as the antithesis of the hedonistic exploits of the young rich of Jay McInerney and Bret Easton Ellis‘ fiction, Arthur Nersesian’s The Fuck-Up explores life at the other end of the scale, the destitute, the equally lost and the seemingly hopeless with the same amoral tone. A brief word about the cover design, you can probably imagine how the back cover looks from the front, and so when the reader is reading it the title forms a sort of caption which invites comparison. I can’t decide if it is appealingly minimalist design or self-consciously humiliating.

In The Fuck-Up, the unnamed narrator navigates the underworld of 1980s New York, getting by on lies and just enough luck. Having been dumped by both his girlfriend and his near-mistress, and being fired from his job at a movie theatre for asking for and receiving a raise which caused an upset among the other employees, the narrator moves in with a slightly older intellectual friend, Helmsley, and finds another low paying job in a gay porn theatre. Overhearing a conversation on a train, he goes for the job opportunity and lies to his neo-hippie businessman boss Miguel about his sexuality in order to secure his position. As he wanders the streets and contemplates his life, he accidentally finds himself the victim of a number of brutally violent incidents which propel him into further complicated arrangements, including an affair with an unstable older woman, taking up a sublet of a famous film director’s apartment, and shady business arrangements with Miguel, each destroying his life in their own way.

By the end of the second week, I stopped getting up before noon, and by the middle of the third week I stopped shaving altogether. I’d lie around in bed watching daytime TV, which is the first sign of nervous breakdown in an enlightened culture. First, I watched the noon news and talk shows, then the game shows, onto the late-afternoon talk shows, and finally I was glued to the soaps. After that TV-mangled period, I stopped watching and just slept a lot.

The narrator is far from stupid or clueless, but he manages to continually implicate himself in awful situations until, releasing himself from hospital after a vicious beating, Helmsley’s suicide, jobless after the scam is revealed, and homeless after the film director discovers he has been sleeping with his girlfriend, he finds himself made anonymous by complete destitution. Unlike most novels that let their characters sink to this level of physical desperation, of constant hunger and no glimmer of hope, there is never the sense that everything will be made okay by the last pages, which allows the physical and psychological abasement to be strongly felt. While things do eventually begin to look up for our nameless hero, it comes without any moralizing and from the most unlikely source, broadening our understanding of two of the characters.

Drifting up Broadway, past the youth industry, complete with all the latest fashion outposts, I was a ghost. I tried to look into eyes, but if anyone cast a fearful glance at me it was only so that they’d be sure they were avoiding me. I was no longer a member of the human club. But I had to get back in. I kept reassuring myself that if I thought hard enough I could find a solution. But I was working under a ruptured brain. Thoughts braced against the incomprehensible, straining to pick up a weight just an ounce too heavy for my thought muscles.

Engaging and darkly funny, like Chuck Palahniuk‘s fiction of hyper self-aware characters without the explicit grotesqueries, The Fuck-Up isn’t afraid to delve into the lives and aspects of society we too often shy away from. The Fuck-Up takes hipster slackerdom and pushes it to its most extreme, and it is not pretty.

The Spare Room by Helen Garner (2008)

The Spare Room by Helen Garner (2008)Seeing Helen Garner talk last week at the Wheeler Centre (some video footage from the event is now available online) has given me reason to return to her work, even though I was not wholly convinced by Monkey Grip. (Although, I think because at the time I was still recovering from removing myself from a similarly vicious and cyclic relationship, that may have been the cause of my vehement reaction to Nora’s actions. I do intend to return to it when my feelings about that situation aren’t so volatile. I suppose my point being that personal circumstances always effect how you read a book, but it isn’t the only way.) I had started The Spare Room in the lead up to seeing Garner’s discussion, but hearing her talk so eloquently about her craft has inspired me to further explore her writing.

I heard her moving about not long after midnight, and came out to check. Her shoulder and neck were hurting. Again she was wet, but not with piss. It was sweat: the bed-clothes were soaked, almost through to the mattress, and even the pillow was sodden. Three times that night I tackled the bed: stripped and changed, stripped and changed. This was the part I liked, straightforward tasks of love and order that I could perform with ease. We didn’t bother to put ourselves through hoops of apology and pardon.

In The Spare Room, Garner has fictionalized her own experiences; Nicola, a friend dying of cancer seeks refuge at Helen’s house in Melbourne while undergoing experimental alternative treatment. The conflict arises not from Nicola’s visitation, but rather her refusal to accept her fate and her endless hope in what Helen sees as disreputable. As the battery of the treatments take effect and require more and more of Helen’s physical assistance, the emotional impact begins to take its toll. Confrontations with the practitioner amount to vague threats and uncontrollably (and understandably) emotional outbursts of anger, the support of Nicola’s family members offers some respite but is all too brief.

We sat on the bench doubled over. Oh, I loved her for the way she made me laugh. She was the least self-important person I knew, the kindest, the least bitchy. I couldn’t imagine the world without her. She would not admit it, but her house was unreachable now. Unless someone carried her there on his back, she would never go home again.

The emotional impact on the reader doesn’t come solely from the question of the morality of shady alternatives that falsely encourage hope in terminally ill patients, but rather the strength of the relationship between Nicola and Helen, even at its darkest and when all hope appears to be lost. As an unashamedly selfish twenty-something, it made me ask myself the question of how far would I be willing to go for someone I care about? What responsibilities to our loved ones do we hold in our relationship with them? To what extent are we willing to accept responsibility of their well being? In The Spare Room, Helen is happy to take on the draining routines of care even though she wasn’t asked, but she also recognizes her own inability to fully deal with the situation.

Death will not be denied. To try is grandiose. It drives madness into the soul. It leaches our virtue. It injects poison into friendship, and makes a mockery of love.

The Spare Room is moving, but not in an abrasive or showy manner. By outlining the daily routines associated with caring for the terminally ill loved one in clear-eyed and honest prose it presents it as a quiet reality. Littering it with references to iconic Melbourne landmarks, events and streets adds to this sense of everyday reality, but again, it’s not the sense of location that is the focus of the novel – it is in the relationships and the question of responsibility within them.

Book Loot: Week Ending February 21st, 2010

Book Loot: Week Ending 21st February, 2010It seems a fitting end to Carson McCullers Week 2010 that this week’s loot includes a McCullers book. I’ve discovered a British publisher that re-released her novels with the release of the Mortgaged Heart in the early 1970s, and they all have classic typographical hardcovers. And so, in typical obsessive mode, I’m working on collecting myself a complete set, starting with The Heart is a Lonely Hunter, with Clock Without Hands [review] making its way to me from France, and pining for the rest of them.

I even had the first pick of a huge box full of outdated trade proofs at work and only came home with E.L. Doctorow’s Homer and Langley. I think my attitude to book buying/hoarding has shifted, I’m just not sure when/why/how this shift occurred. Working in the bookstore hasn’t weakened my resolve, the only books I’ve bought there so far have been as presents for others. Although I do have my eye and heart eagerly set on a delicious looking Penguin reference box set.

Simon Caterson’s Hoax Nation: Australian Fakes and Frauds, from Plato to Norma Khouri is a review copy kindly sent from Arcade Publications, and I’m really looking forward to getting stuck into it. They also sent me their Melbourne by the Book pamphlet of “Literary Hot Spots, Bookstores, Festivals and More” which is going to give me a lot of new bookish places to explore around town, giving me approximately 451283 more reasons to love Melbourne.

In addition to these new reads, I’ve also been borrowing from the library a lot. And I really mean a lot. I’m too embarrassed to post a photo of exactly what I have borrowed over the past week or so because it displays the sheer audacity of my ambitious approach to reading. I’ve got some young adult fiction, a lot of books by authors from the Gala Night last week, and some books I’ve just haven’t yet gotten around to reading or have found impossible  to find elsewhere. It’s almost daunting, it would be impossible for anyone to read the stupid amounts of books I have out on loan, but goddamnit if I’m not going to try.

Short Story Soiree: Sucker by Carson McCullers (1963)

The Mortgaged Heart by Carson McCullers (1972)The Short Story Soiree is back after a short break last week due to my time getting gobbled up by other commitments. Incidentally, this also marks the 100th post on Start Narrative Here, and it’s kind of nice to have a milestone post take place within a week dedicated to my favourite author. In The Mortgaged Heart, Margarita Smith argues that these shorter pieces of McCullers’ writing are examples of early writing exercises rather than fully formed stories. “Sucker” was published in the Saturday Evening Post in 1963, but it is believed that Carson wrote it when she was about seventeen. Included in the documentation of The Mortgaged Heart is a rejection letter dated 1939 listing the twenty six publications that rejected two of McCullers short stories, “Sucker” included.

The Sucker of this short story is the younger orphaned cousin of the narrator, Pete, who share a room together. Pete at sixteen is just beginning to become interested in girls, specifically the coiffed and manicured Maybelle, while Sucker at twelve is a quiet and timid boy who idolizes Pete. Sucker tries to bond with Pete, but Pete is too preoccupied with the perpetually aloof Maybelle. Mimicking Maybelle’s own rejection of Pete, Pete belittles and ignores Sucker and his feelings. Written from Pete’s perspective after the major change in their relationship, he is remorseful over his treatment of Sucker, but aware that he is unable to take any of it back.

Now that Sucker has changed so much it is a little hard to remember him as he used to be. I never imagined anything would suddenly happen that would make us both very different. I never knew that in order to get what has happened straight in my mind I would want to think back on him as he used to be and compare and try to get things settled. If I could have seen him ahead maybe I would have acted different.

As Maybelle starts to pay more attention to Pete, so too does Pete to Sucker. One evening, awakened from the bliss of a dream of kissing Maybelle, Sucker asks Pete if he likes him as much as a brother. Pete responds positively, even calling Sucker “a swell kid.” In this moment Pete realizes that he actually does really like Sucker, probably even more than he likes Maybelle, and they begin to grow closer. As the fluctuating desires of Maybelle turn against Pete, Pete too rages against Sucker, taking out his frustrations on the only person he can. As Pete repeatedly and brutally hurls out insults and insinuates that Sucker is unwanted, something changes in Sucker, a change is visible to Pete even as it is happening. Sucker is never quite the same afterward, a hardness comes into his face, and he retreats. Pete too is changed by this event, but has no way of altering his past behaviour.

More than anything I want to be easy in my mind again. And I miss the way Sucker and I were for a while in a funny, sad way that before this I never would have believed. But everything is so different that there seems to be nothing I can do to get it right. I’ve sometimes thought if we could have it out in a big fight that would help. But I can’t fight him because he’s four years younger. And another thing – sometimes this look in his eyes makes me almost believe that if Sucker could he would kill me.

It’s pretty wrenching stuff, the loss of innocence and faith in other people at such a young age. Disappointments from those who you hold highest always sting the most. Pete’s callous lashing out at Sucker causes irreparable damage to their relationship; and Pete recognizes that his harsh treatment of Sucker is unforgivable. It’s not my favourite McCullers short story (that easily goes to “A Tree, A Rock, A Cloud” which I could probably quite easily spend an entire week talking about), but “Sucker” hits a nerve because of the sensitive treatment of youthful disappointments.

[Also, when I was younger and learning to talk I couldn't pronounce my name - Jessica - properly and so called myself "Sucker." As in Jes-sucker, get it? It's for the best the nickname hasn't stuck beyond the occasional use from immediate family members.]

Clock Without Hands by Carson McCullers (1961)

Clock Without Hands by Carson McCullers (1961)Clock Without Hands, Carson McCullers‘ final novel, is permeated by a sense of illness, death and social disease. Set in a small town in the South of the United States, circling the lives of four very different men, two young, two old, their lives collide in the present and in the past in a series of violent, unsettling confrontations. Bleak and despondent as it is, McCullers imbues this darkness with an understanding of the fragility of the human heart, the futile rage against death and the necessity of the fight against social injustice.

The novel opens with J.T. Malone, the local pharmacist, discovering that he is suffering from leukemia and only has a few months to live. A mostly virtuous man, he begins to question and lash out at the world which offers him no hope, no cure and no redemption. He considers his life differently knowing that he has not much time left to live it. He maintains a somewhat close friendship with the larger than life figure of Judge Fox Clane. Excessive in opinion, body and stature, but with his mind succumbing to the senility of old age and having suffered a stroke which paralyzed half his body and dealing with diabetes, the Judge continually denies any evidence of illness to all outsiders. His wife’s death left a considerable gap in his life, and he tries to fill it with other women, women with similar habits or looks, only to find them all unsatisfactory. Having lost his only son to suicide, the Judge’s only relation is the idealistic and sensitive Jester Clane.

Several months ago he had read in these bylines the words: ‘How can the dead truly be dead when they are still walking in my heart?’ It was from an old Indian legend and the Judge could not forget it.

Jester’s relationship with his grandfather is bristling with their conflicting opinions over the issue of race. While the Judge longs for the old days of the South, Jester antagonizes him with his desire for full integration. Despite the Judge’s racist attitudes, his closest relationship is with his amanuensis, the blue-eyed black boy Sherman Pew. An orphan who is constantly searching for his unknown mother, and desperately seeking her in musical stars, Sherman is prickly to everyone that is around him. Nonetheless, he and Jester share a friendly competitiveness and antagonism which often becomes humiliating to both. Jester, it is suggested, harbours deeper feelings for Sherman.

Not only are their current lives and situations delicately intertwined, but as the novel moves along and revelations are made, their pasts are just as connected. Jester’s discovery of his father’s personality and circumstances before his suicide through the late night hysterics of the Judge answers the vital questions of identity for him, whereas Sherman’s own acknowledgment of his parentage only leads to more questions and his sense of self utterly destroyed. It is these questions and uncertainty that lead him to take action against the racist implications of the town, which in turn leads to the horrifically violent confrontation that ends in his death. Meanwhile, Malone, gradually closer to his death, stands up to his townsfolk and refuses their intense appetite for destruction in the name of morality, making his final grasp at heroism. Though he doesn’t achieve it in the eyes of the betrayed, hurt townspeople, he comes closer to peace with himself and the world around him.

As he sat holding the pestle there was in him enough composure to wonder at those alien emotions that had veered so violently in his once mild heart. He was split between love and hatred – but what he loved and what he hated was unclear. For the first time he knew that death was near him. But the terror that choked him was not caused by the knowledge of his own death. The terror concerned some mysterious drama that was going on – although what the drama was about Malone did not know. The terror questioned what would happen in those months – how long? – that glared upon his numbered days. He was a man watching a clock without hands.

The most somber detail of the novel is the profound sense of the failure of traditional spiritual or religious modes to explain death or to offer comfort to the dying. The Judge freely moves from church to church, mainly hoping to find someone who can mimic his dead wife than to find solace in religion; Malone too looks for comfort in the church but fails to find it, and yet refuses to commit the act of violence because he doesn’t want to endanger his soul. Redemption is made on earth, in humane actions, but Malone seeks justification for it in the sacred.

Yes, the earth had revolved its seasons and spring had come again. but there was no longer a revulsion against nature, against things. A strange lightness had come upon his soul and he exalted. He looked at nature now and it was part of himself. He was no longer a man watching a clock without hands. He was not alone, he did not rebel, he did not suffer. He did not even think of death these days. He was not a man dying – nobody died, everybody died.

As in all of McCullers’ novels, Clock Without Hands seeks to explore the injustices of society, spiritual isolation and confusion, the confounding nature of human love and affection, our own battles with ourselves prying us apart from those around us. Yet, as bleak as the issues it deals with are, one doesn’t leave the vivid world of Clock Without Hands feeling weighed down by the impotence of our struggle against death, but rather with the intimation that hope is always available at all junctures of life, even on the very cusp of death.

Poem: Saraband by Carson McCullers

The Mortgaged Heart by Carson McCullers (1972)Though primarily known as a writer of novels and plays, Carson McCullers did also write a little poetry. She even published a book of children’s verse, Sweet as a Pickle, Clean as a Pig, which I believe was only given one print run and seems to be rather scarce today. There are always a few copies on AbeBooks, but always just that little bit out of my price range, perhaps one day I will treat myself to my own copy. Until then, a very small selection of her poetry is available in the posthumous collection of her writing edited by her sister, Margarita G. Smith, The Mortgaged Heart. All of the poetry published in this volume is also available online. The anecdote from Margarita Smith refers to “Stone is Not Stone

This poem called ‘Saraband’ was recorded for MGM records for Carson McCullers Reads (one day I will get that record converted), although McCullers was reciting her poems from memory and forgot four of the lines. I love how appropriately musical the rhythm of this piece is, especially when read aloud. It’s so rhythmic and soothing, especially with couplets such as the darkly beautiful “crown a host of unassorted sorrows/you never could manage one by one”, which reminds me of Elliott Smith lyrics.

Carson McCullers by Carl Van Vechten, 1959

Saraband

Select your sorrows if you can,
Edit your ironies, even grieve with guile.
Adjust to a world divided
Which demands your candid senses stoop to labyrinthine wiles
What natural alchemy lends
To the scrubby grocery boy with dirty hair
The lustre of Apollo, or Golden Hyacinth’s fabled stare.
If you must cross the April park, be brisk:
Avoid the cadence of the evening, eyes from afar
Lest you be held as a security risk
Solicit only the evening star.

Your desperate nerves fuse laughter with disaster
And higgledy piggledy giggle once begun
Crown a host of unassorted sorrows
You never could manage one by one.
The world that jibes your tenderness
Jails your lust.
Bewildered by the paradox of all your musts
Turning from horizon to horizon, noonday to dusk:
It may be only you can understand:
On a mild sea afternoon of blue and gold
When the sky is a mild blue of a Chinese bowl
The bones of Hart Crane, sailors and the drugstore man
Beat on the ocean’s floor the same saraband.

About her poetry, I remember best one evening at a university lecture. After she had recited ‘Stone Is Not Stone’ in her gentle Southern voice, there was a long silence. Then suddenly a young student stood up and said, ‘Mrs McCullers, I love you.’
(Margarita Smith on Carson McCullers’ poetry in The Mortgaged Heart)

[Photo Credit: Carson McCullers in 1959, by Carl Van Vechten from the Library of Congress collection]

Letter: Carson McCullers to Reeve McCullers, late December 1944.

Illumination & Night Glare: The Unfinished Autobiography of Carson McCullers (1999)As I mentioned in yesterday’s review of Illumination & Night Glare: The Unfinished Autobiography of Carson McCullers, McCullers is reluctant to reveal her feelings or her reasons for returning to marry Reeves a second time in 1945. The inclusion of the war letters between Carson and Reeves – an inclusion that Carson herself dictated in the original manuscript of her autobiography – betrays this reticence, and instead shows a tender, strongly felt bond between the two. Whether it was the separation of distance or time or a heightened emotional response in reaction to the war, or a combination remains to be seen, but I think McCullers more than understood the unpredictable ways of human affection. As I mentioned yesterday, Illumination & Night Glare offers a different view of Reeves, and being able to read his letters, his thoughts and his feelings helps to soften the image of him as a hard-drinking, bitterly disappointed, jealous, suicidal young man; which, of course, he ultimately was, but reading his letters and Carson’s perception of their relationship shows the other dimensions of his personality. This letter, written in late December 1944, is from Carson to Reeves, who has been injured in the war and is in hospital in England. Carson doesn’t have the address for the hospital, and any correspondence coming through from Reeves is delayed by about a month.

Carson and Reeves McCullers in Paris, 1947

“My Beloved Reeves,

This morning both Mrs. Clay and the postman knocked on our door and handed me a letter. It’s the first time in many weeks I’d not been waiting for the mail in the hall, and they were so happy to hand me the letter. Then, when it was opened it was the beautiful letter written Dec. 3 at the rest camp behind the lines. I have been reading it all during the day. But still I know no more about where you are now. Sometimes I picture you in an English hospital, without letters, with no boxes from me — and I weep when I think that the letter will have to go all the way to Belgium or Germany and then be forwarded to you. Surely I will know soon where you are. I am still possessed, really possessed, with the fancy that you may be on the way home. Every time the telephone rings I tremble all over and expect to hear your precious voice. I try not to be this way, for I am probably letting myself in for the cruelest kind of disappointment. There is no way of saying how much I long for you. — I won’t go on in this tack, because I know there is nothing we can do about it. But surely soon I will hear from you. Soon you will be able to answer all the questions I have been writing you these past weeks since you were wounded.

Reeves, my own darling, I have read many war books, letters, and stories. But your letters to me are the most powerful, suggestive, pieces of writing about war I have ever read. I have showed a few of the letters, parts of them, to other people — and it has been suggested that they ought to be published. Bessie (to whom I read certain parts) is especially insistent about this. Write me what you think. Of course I know they were written with no such intention — they were written only to me, and they are the dearest treasure I possess. You may not like it that I read parts of the letters to anyone else, but I don’t think you will be angry with me. These days it seems I cannot open my mouth without talking about you, without shaping the conversation so that it turns constantly on you.

I know my letters to you fail sometimes even to make sense. They are only the letters of a desperate woman, a little unbalanced sometimes by fear.

My darling heart, it is a bright cold day again. I am quite well again, and yesterday for the first time I went out with Mama for a walk. The river is frozen hard along the shore. The sunrises are especially lovely now; and we are up to see them almost every day. Sometimes the sky is a pure geranium color, and the sun is fiery gold across the ice.

This morning I worked for four hours. There is none of that inner composure, the first essential with me for work, the fruitful tranquility of the old days when I lived with you and worked and we were happy. There is none of that now, but I believe that there will be other times like those for us in the future. And in the meantime, in spite of crying nerves, I will try to work. I failed to finish the story by Christmas but maybe by the middle of March it will be done.

Reeves dearest, everything I see and feel is connected so closely with you. The music I hear and the books I read. For a Christmas present I was given a beautiful pair of velvet slippers, lined with a soft lambswool and very warm and beautiful. I think you might be able to wear them, for they are so soft that even if they are a little tight they wouldn’t hurt you. I long for you to have them as I know how you feel about stepping on a cold floor. I long to look after you and spoil you — and be spoiled a little by you too. Oh Reeves, I love you so deeply and tenderly, and I feel that we, each of us, has so much to make up for to the other.

It is late afternoon, four thirty. I have been here at the typewriter, dreaming and writing, for about two hours. Now I shall go in to Mama, and start one of our endless conversations about you. I adore you.

Your,
Carson”

[Photo of Carson and Reeves McCullers in Paris, 1947  from The Lonely Hunter: A Biography of Carson McCullers by Virginia Spencer Carr]